In the beginning…

I had originally planned on using this as a sounding board for podcasting but life took me in a different direction these last few years. I largely forgot I had even set up this site. Midlife will do that to you. It’s felt like a second birth in many ways. I’m struggling with the beliefs that I was brought up with, my husband is currently fighting cancer, my eldest came out to us this past year, we are still struggling with finding our new “norm” post pandemic, everything seems to be getting more expensive, both monetarily and emotionally, and I’m just trying to figure out what in the hell I’m going to do with it all. My mind wanders most days. I have a difficult time keeping myself on the “daily grind”. Something in between all the stress and anxiety has been pulling at me though. A feeling of not quite being able to express all of what I have inside. Talking just doesn’t seem to ease that nagging, the thoughts piling up like a traffic jam from my head to my mouth, honking and reaving their engines up until all I can hear in my head is the whirring and pounding and endless din of stress. Reading has always been a refuge for me. The written word allows me to work out those traffic patterns in my head, helping me to organize the flow of thoughts so that they are more clear and are able to flow more freely from my head out into the world. With that being the case, I have come to the conclusion that perhaps writing is the way to go. So, this blog space will be used as a sounding board for my creative writing process. A way to begin ironing out the traffic jam of thoughts and ideas that are in my head. My goal is to use this brainstorming to maybe write a book sometime. We will see where this experience takes me. For now, I’m going to use this space as a starting point, a way to begin loosely organizing my thoughts, in hopes that it will help me to clear my head and heart a little better than it has been lately. So, here’s to new beginnings…